I Skipped A Week of Blogs and Also a Lot of Sleep

 I used to feel terrible when I would miss a week of something or even a day of something.  Writing everyday?  Guilt when I couldn’t manage to keep it up for every single today.  Weekly blog?  Intense guilt when life meant that I didn’t have the chance to write that week for the blog and other things took up my time.  Call to a friend on a regular basis?  Unable to live with myself for several hours because I had something much more pressing that had to get done.

So I do still feel bad about not posting last week.  But I had things to do and I didn’t get a chance to prepare in advance.  I could’ve worked on it while I was doing things, but I just didn’t have the mental space or the energy to get that kind of thing done.

So I’m here this week to talk about the last two weeks.

They’ve been…a time.

I can’t say that it’s all negative or all positive.  At the end of the day, it just was.  Things were and are changing and I’m just trying to stay on top of everything and get everything done.  Will this mean that I miss more weeks in the months to come?  Definitely.  Will this mean that I’m going to die?  Probably not, but you can never be too certain about the status of your mortality in this day and age.

To say it plainly, I’m stressed af.  The beginning of the fan project that I’m working on is almost ready and not too soon.  I’m going to be scheduling it to start going on the first of December and I really want to have a lot of it done so that I can just keep scheduling it to go up without any issues.  I’m terrified of the project and what it could mean.

But beyond that, a lot of my own creative works have fallen by the wayside.  I’m doing more knitting again and catching up on projects that I’m behind on, but there’s not a lot else that I’m going to be able to do right now.  My life is just at a point where there’s a lot of turmoil and as much as I’m hopping I can use that chaos to set up an easy to follow schedule for myself, I know that there are going to be plenty of other issues, but I have hope.

I’m trying to stay creative and stay childish in a way.  I’m playing video games and reading and taking time to just mess around.  I know that a lot of people will tell me as a 25-year-old that I should be spending more time doing things like dating or going out and to all of that, I say a giant fuck you.

I may be almost 25, but that doesn’t mean that I have to be anything like what people expect.  My career is a hot mess of going from a very businessy company to work at a place focused on video games and nerd culture and I’m sure that the next step will go even weirder.

I’ve been having a hard time being the idea of an adult right now.  I’m not interested in settling down with anyone but my cat right now and she’s perfectly content to hang out while I yell at video games and write on the floor of my apartment.  There are so many things that I could be doing differently and so many ways that I could be taking myself 1000% more seriously, but there’s no fun in that.

Whatever has happened lately that’s got me stressed out.  I don’t need to bog myself down in being depressed over what hasn’t been or what could be.  I need to focus on the future and how I can write something great and how I can make something good.  Whatever I do, I will be proud of myself for taking the steps I could.  And you should feel good about the steps that you have taken too.

Here’s to getting back into the grove of things.

Book Review – Harley Merlin and the Secret Coven

So I found this book because of a book club that I’m in. I have a lot of feelings about books, so sometimes getting another group that makes the choice outside of me helps because then I don’t have to worry about making choices. It does have an adverse affect in that we’re never reading things that I already have on my shelf, so my to read list never gets shorter, just stays the same or even gets longer.

I read this book in just three or four days because I was running behind on getting a copy of the book. It wasn’t the fastest I’ve read a book, but it should help you to get an idea of how dense the book is. I’m a fairly quick reader (I finished 2 books the day after reading this one), but even that seemed like it was insanely quick.

I have a phrase that I want to use to describe this book, but the connotation of the phrase may make you think that I didn’t like the book or have a low opinion of it. That isn’t the case and we’ll get into why I think what I do. But I would call the first book of the Harley Merlin series really good trash.

It’s not like on the same level as reality TV shows, but it was fun to read and it was just full of tropes. I don’t mind tropes. They have their place and they can do some really interesting things in writing. In fact, I’ve read some really good books that started their premise with something that was rather tropey. Right now, I only know so much about the series because I’ve read only the first book, but I do know that there’s a lot of potential for a larger world that is a lot of fun.

And the best part of the book was that even though it was full of tropes, there were little twists on the tropes that I hadn’t seen before. I loved it a lot actually.

The best example of this comes from the title of the book. Part of the story involves Harley being an orphan (literally talked about in the first couple of pages, so it really isn’t a spoiler). The title gives away a major plot point about her last name being Harley Merlin, but the way that she’s introduced is as Harley Smith. So we know that she’s going to go through a reveal that shows off her origins. And how that can be done is something that I was really interested in. There are so many trope-filled ways that it could have gone, but the way that it wound up playing out here was quite different than what I expected, just based on the last name that I knew she was going to live up to.

Trope with a twist right there.

This book is a YA urban fantasy through and through, but that’s something that I read as a guilty pleasure, so I was super excited to find something new and interesting in the genre. It’s got a lot of things that I’m interested in. There’s a coven or group around the magic, but it didn’t force people into an academy (even though there is an academy that our main character spends some time taking classes in). Unlike other series, the classes don’t create a basis for the rest of the story. The story happens outside of the classes and the main character finds important extra lessons from the classes, but it still isn’t the main part of the story. This is actually something I appreciated a lot as some other YA urban fantasy stories rely heavily on the world building coming from someone who is uninitiated having to be in classes to learn about the world. In this case, you weren’t going to really see that kind of behavior. Instead, the world building happened in much more tangible ways. As a writer and reader, I really appreciated the work that went into making the story a little more grounded and easier to get into.

Most YA books are pretty formulaic and what I would consider good trash and this book is no exception. In also results in a lot of series having a first book that feels a bit like a first chapter. While “Harley Merlin and the Secret Coven” doesn’t get too far into the world, it does present enough of a story that I’m not worried about finishing the book. There are still loose ends, but I’m not left asking a ton of questions. that seem fundamental to the whole story. The writing in the book was fantastic. I’m grabbing the second book soon so that I can see what happens next. It’s the kind of book that I need right now while my life is going a little bit crazy. But it will be a little while before you get read about how I feel about the second book.
Next week, you should be getting my review of the 3rd book of the Nightblade Epic and there are 2 books after that I read recently that I’m excited to share with you. So just like half a month before you’ll get to read my review of that book. And that’s assuming everything goes to plan. Who knows? Not me.

A Rough Week

 I wrote this blog a very different way when I started it.  It had subjects that I will very definitely touch on at a different date here.

The long and the short of it at this point is that this week has been rough.  Like in a way that I didn’t expect.  It just felt heavy on my shoulders and I’m trying to wade through everything and work through my emotions and thoughts in a way that will leave me able to deal with the coming week.

When I sat down to rewrite this blog, I didn’t think I could.  There’s just a lot in my head.  But it’s at times like this that I often rely more heavily on the creative side of everything to help me.  I don’t let the creative side take over my whole life, but sometimes you need it for an hour to dive into something that isn’t what you’re dealing with.

Escapism has its place and its best in my case when I can use it to take a break from whatever is on my mind and then dive back into reality when I have my head better set on my shoulders.

This week, well, it’s over now.  Even if I’m not thrilled with how everything looks at the moment, I have to remember that I’m still here and still have to keep moving forward.

I’m sorry this blog doesn’t make a lot of sense.  Next week, I’ll try to be more on top of everything and have something more than ‘feeling sad’ as the whole mood of the week. But if there’s one thing I can tell you today, go tell the people that matter in your life that you appreciate them.  Whether it’s family, friends, coworkers, whoever.  We all need a little more positive energy in the world.

Book Review – Mystic by Garrett Robinson

 Here we go again.  Book reviews.  I got this.  I think.  I’m excited.  I’m also not excited.  Let’s just jump into this.  The schedule for writing and editing these is kind of getting to me, but I did make a commitment to trying to do this.  I may work on getting further ahead in my work so that I’m only having to write the writing updates as I go.  We’ll see!  I have finished 3 books since I finished this one, so I can do some bulk writing ahead.  Also I definitely meant to post my last post yesterday.  I definitely didn’t want to post it on Sunday and somehow screwed up the scheduling.

But to the important subject here.  The second book of the Nightblade Epic “Mystic.”  In my previous review, I did state that there were some issues that had come up.  It was a 4 out of 5 stars.  And some of the issues that I had brought up do carry through into this book, but there are several that don’t or that matter less now.  I will still point out that the copy of the book that I’m reading is from the omnibus version of the series which has the first three books of the Nightblade Epic in one volume.  They are not separate entities, which does change the way that I look at the book and the way that I approach the review.

Onto more meatier subjects.

From the very get go, “Mystic” is a solid step up from the first book in the series.  The language feels more natural and the descriptions of the world are more detailed and explain more about the underlying situation.  I do contribute the lack of description from the first book to some of that Chapter One Syndrome that I’ve spoken about before.  Due to the fact that there’s already that base of the first book as well as some more time spent with the material really results in the whole book feeling smoother to me personally.  I can’t discount the possibility that after reading hundreds of pages, I may just be more comfortable with Robinson’s language at this point.  But that doesn’t change the fact that I connected better with the second book in the series.

One comment I had about the way that the books are combined and the way that the transition between them feels.  But on another note, because of the way that I’ve read these books, I haven’t seen if the individual books have a different transition or some other way of connecting the books.  But in this version of the books, the transition of the two volumes does feel like you’re turning the pages to another chapter rather than flipping to another book.  Again, in this case, I don’t find this to be a flaw in anyway, it’s just the way that the book has been formatted.

But again, the only major problem that may come up from this choice in formatting is for the people that will take time between books.  There are some details that are more or less lost between the volumes.  The facts aren’t reiterated and so some things might be lost for those readers that take more time.  There were one or two things that I had to double check when I was reading the two different volumes.

On top of this.  There are also some details that are more or less dropped between books.  Details aren’t referenced anymore that were incredibly important in the first volume.  In particular, Gem’s history and the Nightblade itself were two things that seemed to disappear until they became critical or until later in the book. I can’t say that I hated these choices, but they did cause some confusion when I was reading because I expected to see some of the threads come through a little bit more clearly.  On that same note, I actually appreciated the topic of Nightblade’s origins and purposes not coming up as often.  During the first book, it came up all the time, so much so that it didn’t feel like I was really reading anything important anymore.  When it came up this time around, there were more important details that were adding.  It wasn’t that we were hearing various mysterious facts and were instead something more substantial.

As a writer, I often consider the purpose of the words that I use wherever I am writing.  I’d like to leave no word wasted when it comes to pushing towards that end goal for the story, but I also appreciate when a writer takes time to give space for characters to be fleshed out.  This is another thing that I noticed.  As we delved further into the plot, I felt like Gem was flattening out as a character in some ways.  He did get less time on the page compared to some of the other characters and we did get a fuller image of Jordel and Vivian.  Ultimately, this isn’t a flaw of this piece, but a flaw in the way that epics end up being.  Every character has their arc.  In this case, it just wasn’t time for Gem’s arc anymore.  This is a fact that definitely disappointed me, but it is hard to balance an extreme number of characters as a larger world starts to unfold.

It’s something that all writer struggle with when they’re creating large works.  I definitely am not immune to this issue and often struggle with it in my own writing.  I try my hardest to make sure that everything works correctly, but that doesn’t meant that what I do meshes with the whole audience that I am writing to or the story itself.

At the end of this book, I still have plenty of questions about what’s going on and what’s to come.  In particular, Annis’s mother Damaris and the details of what had happened to her were stated, but everything was left vague and the family looking for Annis was mentioned, but the details weren’t enough to sate my curiosity for what’s happening.  I have an inkling that they will still become an issue later on, but at the moment there’s nothing pointing to what will really happen.  And I’m definitely not saying that I wanted Damaris to strut back into the scene and do something, but I wanted more than Jordel’s words about the situation.

There are some details like that that are still bothering me, but as a reader, I am particularly impatient.  This is something that I know also based on the way that I write as well.  So some of the way that I’m reading this is reflected in the way I write.  I understand why a writer does things a different way, but I’m always going to be looking for the shortest path to the juiciest details.

So beyond what I see as the kind of reader that I am, everything is this book felt smoother and cleaner than before.  There were so many things that I had had little issues with before this that had become clean and smooth in this new part of the story.  I’m not expecting perfection out of any of the books that I’m reading.  In fact, I could never expect that.  I’m not always the perfect reader, but I’m happy to read everything.

I still recommend this series, even more so now that I’m on the second book.  If you like classic fantasy stories, then you will love this book.  Unfortunately, I had to read a couple of books between the second and third volumes of this book.  The next book review will be something else.  I’m going to try and have only one book between these two, but we’ll see what I can do at the end of the day.  See you guys next week with a review of a book I read for a book club “Marley Merlin and The Secret Coven” by Bella Forrest

What’s The Point?

 Last week, I made my first post in a while and reintroduced myself to this blogging space.  I’m still working through a lot of stuff, but I wanted to talk about what made me want to do this and what motivated me to get back into this.  You would be surprised to learn that I actually missed this.  Even though I struggling with keeping up with the schedule that I had set for myself, I missed this.  I missed having a little bit of pressure that got me motivated to do things outside of work.  When I was in school, there was so much going on that I couldn’t not do things outside of the studies that I was working on.  Sometimes the things that were ‘outside’ of my work would actually wind up coinciding with things that I was working on for classes.  Those were the best days, but they weren’t common.

Work has become a very different beast and poses a completely different problem now that I’m out here.  I’m often exhausted at the end of the day in a way that goes beyond just being physically tired.  My brain and everything feels like it’s done ‘enough’ and I feel like I just can’t be bothered to do anything more.  It sits deep in my bones and guides me to my bed after a long day at work and leads me to lay down and stare up at the ceiling for a long period of time.

But despite that exhaustion, I’m not being wrung dry of all the thoughts and ideas and things that I want to do and that’s the main problem.  My head was still full of thoughts, but I was just going to bed and let everything kind of rot away in my head.  I’ve found that I really hate that.  I hate not having everything in my head used up on paper.  I missed being able to have the space to do that kind of work.  That’s what’s brought me back.

So now I’m throwing this on top of work and everything else that is exhausting to me.  Ironically, I’m finding that in starting this that I’m getting rid of some of that mental fog and keeping myself working in a way that I wasn’t between college and now.  I also understand that this conversation sounds absolutely ridiculous.

I’m 24, not 44.  I haven’t had 20+ years of the same old, same old being thrown at me.  I’ve had a couple years in various offices and a year of working on my own as a freelancer.  I’m not going to retire anytime soon.  I know that already.  I know that I’m not going to get to lounge around and write all the time like I want to, but I need just a little bit of that dream in my life to keep me working for something.

I would much rather not be chained to my desk at work all the time.  I would rather find something else to do with my days, but that’s not how capitalism works and that’s not how I’m going to make sure that I have a solid future.

But even if I was free of work, I would be inside, working my tail off on something that made me happy.  I would be writing, learning how to paint, getting involved in all the things that I don’t have time for right now.  Maybe some of that is sitting at a desk, but so much more of it is getting out there and trying things that I have always wanted to.  But I am 24 and I’ve got to keep food on the table and a roof over my head.  Not just for me, but for that super cute cat that I love that is next to me, grooming herself.

Coming here and wanting to redo this whole blog thing isn’t just about getting my brain working again.  It’s about getting something out of my system.  There are so many days that I have walked away from work and spent the whole day thinking about projects that I love, but by the time I open that front door, I am ready to fall down and sleep.  At 5 pm.  Those days are the worst.  And that exhaustion doesn’t come from one specific place like my manager or my coworkers or my work.  It’s everything all at once and yet just the fact that work can be be incredibly exhausting.  Sometimes you’re just going to be that done at the end of the day.  I get.  I’ve felt it enough times to understand what causes it, but I’m at work and I can’t just skip over the parts of life to rest up the way that I want to.

But the other part of rest is mental renewal.  You can’t be sitting there, focused on one thing forever.  Heck, I can’t even do that during the day.  You have to get up, walk around, let your mind wander, and then turn around and come back to that first task that you were working on.  That’s not a bad thing.  Some people try to look at that kind of working as something that means that you’re less than.  You know what that means to me?  It means you’re human.  No one can sit for several hours without their mind wandering at least once.

In the last couple of months, I haven’t been taking the time to find projects for myself that requite a schedule that will keep me coming back to something and walking away from other work that I keep focusing too intently on.  I’m changing that.  I have a calendar tracking all of the things that I’m writing for the blog and how much writing I’m doing in general.  I’ve got everything down at the moment.  Will it stay that way in the future?  Definitely not, but I’m doing my best. 

Maybe I’ll come away from this whole thing writing more again, just in general.  Maybe I won’t.  I really don’t know what’s going to happen at the end of all of this or where the end may really be.  I just know that I’ve been dealing with some shit and instead of actually giving myself a way to get rid of all that energy, I have been pushing it further and further down and now I’m bursting with energy.

As a real part of the writing update that I’m crafting here:

I’ve got three projects to help me burn off all that extra energy that I’ve been talking about.

The first, this.  It’s eating up most of my bandwidth as I get into the swing of things and work on prepping content out further than necessary to give myself some padding in case anything goes wrong in the rest of my life.  This I view as a necessity.  i can’t pretend that I’m going to be okay if I just fly by the seat of my pants here.

The second, a fanwork.  This project is…massive to put it as briefly as possible.  I don’t want to share anything else about it at the moment as I’m still working on the drafting process and I’m not sure how it’s going to turn out.  I may decide to share more information about this project as I get into it, but at this point, I don’t want to share it out there with the world at the moment.  I’m maintaining some stuff online for the work even as I draft, but it’s a little bit separated from me.  Have I already almost posted the wrong thing to the wrong Twitter?  Of course.  I’m very bad at technology.

The third, Zodiac Nymphs.  This is another larger project that I’ve been working on.  It’s a massive world.  I’ve been working on a story in the world, but I’m not sure what part of the story I really want to focus on and develop into something more.  I’ll either figure it out or I won’t.  Who knows where I will really go with the story at this point?

How am I keeping track of all these projects?  Not well.  I’ll put it that way.  I’ve made an Asana board for my blog writing, so I may make a board to help me keep track of my writing progress, especially as we get closer and closer to November.

Until next week, I’ll be here, screaming in the void or my pillow or both.

Book Review – Nightblade by Garrett Robinson

 “Nightblade” is the first of a series of books set in the universe of Underrealm.  The author Garrett Robinson is a pretty cool dude who streams his writing process, along with the process of editing audio books and more on Twitch.  Writers on Twitch is something that I am onboard with.

After spending some time popping into streams and not having picked up his books (but having seen them around), I decided to use the library and grab the first volume of the Nightblade Epic.  It contains the first three books, but we’ll be focusing on “Nightblade” today.  Why did I tell you about the format of the book that I grabbed?  Because it matters for how a reader approaches a book.

I am part of the way into the second book, Mystic, but I will not be talking about events that happen in the second book.  Okay, so now that we’ve covered the format that I got the book in, let’s just jump into talking about the book and the writing.

As a function of the way that the book is set up, the following thing (for me) isn’t a problem.  However, this is something I see a lot when people create their first book, particularly in the fantasy genre.  I call it Chapter 1 Syndrome.  It’s when the first book in a series feels more like a first chapter than a first complete book.  The setup for the rest of the story is so plainly there and there are too many questions waiting to be answered.  “Nightblade” definitely had this, but I wouldn’t call it the biggest problem because the second and third book are right there for me to read very quickly.  For books that are published on their own like that, it can be a little bit frustrating.  I see it more often with self-published works, but it isn’t confined to that.

In the case of “Nightblade”, I felt it through the fact that there were just a lot of details that weren’t explained about the world.  While I don’t mind having some details that I didn’t quite understand and can be explained at a later point, I found that there were just too many of these details for me to really deal with in this case.  Technically, I could have ignored them as just part of the universe and focused on the core of the story, but I enjoy understanding the world that I’m reading and there were just enough details not there that I was constantly wondering about the world.  Some more base level explanations in the first book would have been more helpful, but overall it didn’t completely destroy the experience that I was having, just left me thinking about the universe a lot when I had put down the book.

In particular, Nightblade, the knife that Loren carries is also the name of the book and the overarching name of the 2 omnibus that he has out.  I am 1000% sure that the knife will be explained more, but even the explanation so far is lacking for me.  It might be my writer brain that was unhappy with that detail.

Which brings us to one of the problems that I will definitely have when we’re working on these book reviews.  When I read, I flip constantly between a reader brain and a writer brain.  When I have a problem with the word on the page, it’s usually my writer brain having a problem with whatever if it is that I’m doing.  And also this is the first real book review that I have ever done on here.  I’ve edited it and really thought about what I’m saying, so I’m not just talking out of my ass about whatever I’m putting up. 

And while I have some problems with some information not being present earlier on in the story, I don’t think that the book is bad or that Robinson is a bad author.  In fact, there’s a lot that I liked about the book.  The pacing of individual scenes were well done and everything flowed well together.  I love the characters, in particular Loren and Gem.  We see Loren go from her life in her home village to how she is out in the world.  I love seeing her become a better version of herself and the way that even Gem kind of grows up.  He has less time to do so, but his adapting to every situation that he gets thrown into is very good to see.

There’s also the big thing that I can see where the world can do.  I’m very excited to learn more about the world and explore more of it with the characters (as the first book takes place more or less mainly focused on one spot).  There are some characters that seemed like they were there solely for the purposes of plot and not to dramatically add much to the story at the moment, but even with those characters, I can see the potential for future plots to happen and how they might work, it’s just a little bit disappointing that it isn’t something that we see in the first book.

However, I understand and want you to understand that none of this is really something that you should consider bad. It’s not great by my standards, but that doesn’t mean that the writing is bad and that I would say that you shouldn’t read this or ever touch it. In fact, I would argue that I’m not yet well-informed enough on this book to have too much of a deeper conversation with the work.

I mean, like I said before, this book and how I am reading it definitely point to the fact that this isn’t going to be a complete piece on its own. I’ll have to take all three books into consideration if I’m going toget anything that tells e what I’m supposed to understand.

But. I haven’t finished the other books in this volume yet. Overall, despite some of the flaws that I found in the structure of the book and the way that it sounds, I’m very much enjoying my time with the book. I don’t know if that will make other people happy to know, but it’s definitely one of the reasons why I’m happy to read this kind of book. Will I find more things about it that I like as we go? For sure. Will I find more things about it that I don’t like? Oh definitely. Neither of these are necessarily related and nor will it detract from my enjoyment of readin the work.

The weird flip-floppy attitude you’re seeing here is born of the fact that I am a writer and a reader. What the writer will see in a piece of work isn’t necessarily what a reader will see or care about. Often times, being a writer while reading means that I see things only from the way that I would have set it up. And often, that doesn’t mean much. Take all reviews with a grain of salt. Reading doesn’t have to take up hours of your day to get through all the books you want to (unless you’re me and you keep buying books despite what your apartment shelves have to say about the matter) and you can definitely figure out if the books that I’m reading and looking at are worse or better than the ones that you’re taking a look at on your own time.

Read more. Read this book. Tell me what you think of it. I’ll be back with another review as soon as I finish the second book.

Here We Go Again

I’m very good at being bad at blogs. I would say that I have a lot hate relationship with them, but I think it goes much, much deeper than that.  But it does keep happening that I start a blog and then drop it.  I guess this SBAHJ page really sums up how this is going to go for me.

(An Aside: If you haven’t read Homestuck yet, I would highly recommend it as someone who loves complicated stories and as someone that likes a meta conversation within a work about how works of art, their creators, and their fans interact.  It’s really a great conversation to have about the place of art in this world and how we might be approaching it wrongly or at least not correctly.)

Back to what I was saying.  Consistency is hard.  I don’t find that it comes to me as naturally as it comes to other people that are out there working on projects.  I get a burst of energy around the issue and then I’m off again, like I am not the same person that I was even twenty minutes ago.  I’m trying hard this time around to build this into the schedule that I have set up for myself.

If I make the writing process more a part of my everyday, then I’m much less likely to somehow fuck this up and really screw myself over.  I am a creature of ritual, but that doesn’t mean that I am a creature of habit.

But at the end of the day, this is the blog of a 24-year-old cis white girl.  I’m really not expecting to break any barriers here.  I will likely be viewed as incredibly not barrier breaking.  If you’re looking for people to lead you into a cultural revolution, I am not one of them.  I will lend my support to all the artists that I can out here, but I’m not going to be the one at the front, leading you into the battle like a crazy person.

Really the old good thing that I’m going to have for you is how good my cat is.  She’s sitting right here by the way, kind of ignoring me because I’m writing super late at night and I guess even the cat has to sleep eventually.  

But she does like sitting around me while I’m typing.  If she’s more awake, she’ll watch me type.  I think she really likes it.  It is how I originally bonded with her after I adopted her.  She was very skittish and wasn’t certain about what I was doing.  So instead of just talking to her like a crazy person, I would sit in the bathroom and type on my computer.  Usually I would just be messaging friends, but it didn’t matter.  She would sit there, making no noise and curling up so hard that I thought she wanted to disappear.  She got used to me and eventually she got the confidence to walk all over me in the morning and make me get up.  She’s very cute and very jealous of anything I hold for longer than I pet her.

Anyways, beyond how much I love my cat, there isn’t really anything about me that is that interesting or that fascinating.  I will add more about my cat into future posts, but that really isn’t going to do anything for anyone.  I will still add pictures of her to some posts.  She’s very cute.  I hoard pictures of her like some sort of weird dragon.

But that’s just one of the things that I’m doing.  I have to be an adult-type person one of these days and I guess I decided that in order to be an adult, I need to actually commit to the things I decide to do.  So let’s stick to this.  I’ll try it again.  It won’t be easy, but that’s what I’ve signed up for here.

New section!  I would use a header, but I’m writing these on 4thewords which means that formatting back and forth between WordPress and 4thewords is a bitch that I refuse to deal with at the moment.

What kinds of things am I going to write about here?

I’ve got some rough ideas.  I still won’t be posting my fiction work here, but I want to talk about it and the progress that I’m making and the struggle of everything that comes with writing large projects.  I have no clue when that will really start or how frequently I’ll write about it.

Otherwise, I’m also going to be doing book reviews just for funsies.  I’m going to aim for weekly, but I need to be able to read the book which doesn’t always happen in a week, so we’ll play that one by ear for sure.  There are also going to be some books that I read that aren’t going to work with the format of a book review and are instead going to be essay series that I write instead.  It honestly depends on the book.  I’m reading two right now that definitely show off the range of things that I’m going to be dealing with.  One is a fantasy series.  The other is a work dissecting the structure of narrative beyond what we consider narrative when we write fiction.  In case you’re interested it’s “Meander, Spiral, Explode: Design and Pattern in Narrative” by Jane Alison.  I find it fascinating.

Okay, so book reviews/essays and writing conversations.  What else could I want to write about?  Life?  Maybe, but probably not.  As much as I like the internet at large, I know that it’s not going to work with me easily and I just don’t want to more of myself out there than necessary.  I’ll find something else to talk about eventually.

It really doesn’t sound like a lot right now, but that’s because I can’t overload myself with all this otherwise I might struggle to get things done.

I’ll be redoing my blog site and using my twitter to actually talk about posts, so if something doesn’t come out, check out my twitter to see what’s going on (@ikstoghtebazile, if you’re interested, but be aware that I post a lot of dumb memes on it too).

So yeah.  That’s it for now.  My cat is pacing around me because I’m not paying enough attention to her, so I’m going to go fix that and hang out with her.

First book review will come out next week.  Whatever day I post it on is the day I pick for the rest of my life for book reviews.  It’ll be fine lol.