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The 2019 Attempt

It’s been a year. 2018 was full of turmoil and personal issues. It was full of international issues. It was full of hard times. It was full of good times and great friends. It was full of celebrations and good growth. Just like many other people out there, I’m coming out of 2018 feeling a little bit worse for wear. But I can already feel that 2019 can start off better. That’s why I’m here right now.

While this is going up, I’m actually probably going to be on a plane. I’m on my way home from spending Christmas with my family in Colorado. Shortly, I’ll be back in Seattle, heading home however I can so that I can get back to working and prepping for the beginning of the new year. I’ve done a lot of…random things throughout 2018. I experimented with uploading to Instagram frequently. I experimented with using twitter more frequently and how it could fit into everything else that I was doing in my free time. I started working with a friend to create some knitting projects. I’m trying to read more. I completed NaNoWriMo for the first time in several years.

But at the end of it all, I was still feeling unfulfilled. So instead of jumping around from thing to thing, I’m trying to take 2019 to not only push myself to write more again, but to create more, share more, and do more.

I suffer from anxiety, so I tend to want to stay inside when I have the chance. I’m trying to break myself of that habit and I’m hoping that if I create goals, I’ll be able to live up to them. It’s not a perfect plan. It might not even really work. But at the end of the day, I’m just trying to make myself a better person. It will take time. It will take effort. It won’t be easy.

There are two notes that I wanted to end on for this post about 2018.

The first is that I make goals, and it will be okay if I don’t meet them. I started a new job within two months of the end of the year and it’s still hard to settle into right now. As I figure out everything that I want to do, I’ll have to spend a lot of time making sure that I’m treating myself right.

The second is that the world is what we make of it. Right now, there have been some horrible situations all around the world. And while you alone can’t change the world. You can do things that help change the people around you. Those little changes can do more in the end.

2019: year of small changes and realistic goals